Be a part of the norm, or a weirdo

"human being" is a gregarious animal. They must always be a part of a certain "group", or "mass", as some like to think. mainly due to their social needs.
but also since they're so scared to be different, scared to be a part of the "odd ones". when someone goes their own path, and doesn't go along the line that the "mass" goes, or what has decided to be a "norm"... he/she becomes an "odd one", for been so different. for having their own path to follow, for been so "weird" among the rest.

it kinda goes like this: in college, high-school, work or such, if there's this certain teacher or a "higher-up" that everyone highly dislikes for a reason or two: everyone must hate them. 'coz it's a part of the "norm" that has been picked. and if someone says that they actually like that person, or thinks that they're nice or so, they get left out. they are no longer part of the "group".. and they get either highly, or a little bit discriminated, hated, bullied or just.... neglected. and it can even go so bad that the person who suddenly became one of the "odds" has to leave the school , even after just a few weeks, simply 'coz they cant take the treatment they have received for raising their opinion. and even if there might be someone else among the group who also likes this "hated person", or thinks their nicer than the mass tells: they just cant say it. and why do you ask? they're afraid. afraid of the neglecting and hatred they might get from leaving "the group", afraid of been hated for protecting, or defending someone else who doesn't go along the group anymore.

we "humans" are pretty damn cruel and selfish creatures. selfish? we usually think more about ourselfs than others. we always think about our next move or where our next meal is comming from, since it's just a part of our normal life. no one can survive without food, right...? but it's not the only thing that makes us selfish: our need to protect ourselfs, even if it means neglecting someone else (I thank the people who are nice enough to care about other people more than themselfs, and are brave enough to stand up for the weaker ones).

anyways. when it comes to this "group", we must always have those certain "norms", "rules" and/or "opinions" about how things are meant to be, or how they are meant to be said. and if someone doesn't go along that; they're practically doomed for been so "different".
some people are strong enough to stand on their own. to be a part of the "odds". the odds against the norms. and when someone is "weird" or "different" among the rest, ofcourse they get a lot of critism for it.. some get even bullied for no good reason at all. but just simply because they are "them", the odd ones...

""--I see... well, been different and dressing up like that.. "noticeable", and looking at people is the main reason why you get so many stares, simply 'coz you "see it", along with critisims and discriminations that you just simply "imagine there to be". so basicly just looking like that, and checking people around .... you're asking for it. you're ASKING them to critisize and judge you, if you just dressed a little bit differently and normally, and didn't note them so much, it wouldn't happen. ""

"either be a norm, or be a weirdo."

---your quaries make it sound like you were asking "why wont you be normal just like the rest?" from me.

but you know what? I never was never a normal person to begin with, I was born the way I am, a weird one. and I dont know if I have some sort of an aura, or an impression on me that tells people to judge me whenever they see me, but it still happens. no matter what. no matter how I look, nor how hard I try to dress and act just to fit in: it's always the same. Always the same old looks and stares, sometimes even the taunts. Always the same old critisims and judging. it has always been like that, and so far as I've understood from us "human beings": it most likely will always be like that. (thank you folks, who dont judge people just like the rest)

so far as I've understood: the "mass", "group" or the "norms" pretty much covers up as a bunch of liars, fakes, back-stabbers, bullies, discriminators or people who are too scared to defend the ones that need their help the most, and so on... that's the kind of a "norm" that I have grow up around. the "norm" that I'm used to see. the discriminations that I've been forced to take, even if I never even did anything to deserve that..

humans are weird, we can start bullying and treating each others badly from just for about anything. overweight, race, likes, interests, dislikes, size, personality: just about anything and everything seems to be a "good" reason for them to bully from. an easy option or conclusion for tossing you into the "weird zone", instead of accepting us as the way as we are. but I quess we never will learn to accept one another without a judging thought or two... we know how many bad and good people out there are, we wont judge the "good people", but almoust once we know that someone has said or done something "bad" or just doesn't go among the "norms", we judge..
(not saying that literally everyone would do that, but I'm pretty sure that even the most accepting people have judged someone once or twice in their life-time. good or bad, doesn't matter at the moment)

---I've always been bullied, discriminated and neglected, mainly for been so overweighted. and also for been "weird" and liking "weird stuff" (seriously, some people actually thought that been interested in martial arts and video games, and liking cats is weird, and found a reason to bully from those subjects)..
with just a bunch of "fakes" around me, and so far: only two of these "fake-friends" have had the guts to say it straight to my face. they were mad at the time. and maybe quite fed up too. and only got my first real friend when I was in 7th or 8th grade or so, and got a few more as the time passed. but did ya know? even if we "grow up" and act so mature for our age: there are still a bunch of fakes around here and there, no matter what. some will grow out of it, some will stay... and some will only grow worse. I'm thankfull for those who have actually grown out of it and started to stand on their own two feet instead of following the "group" for far too long.

I dont want to end up like that. I dont want be a part of this "norm" that I'm used to know and see where ever I look at, I highly dislike their kind. that's the "normal" kind of a person that I've learned to know among the years, unfortunately..

---so that's why I refuse to be a part of the "mass". I refuse to become a "normal person". I'd prefer to be a part of the "odds" against the so called "norms". the "different one", as I have always been.. instead of a cruel mass production clone that only thinks of themselfs and is far too scared to raise their own opinion on anything, and far too afraid to stand up for the bullied and discriminated ones. simply because their so afraid of what will happen to themselfs, but I think that's only a basic human reaction, I think.. just about anyone could get scared of something like that, depending on the situation ofcourse.

"I'd prefer to be a weird hero instead of a such villain as I've learned to know."